The Naked Truth..

Sun, 03 Oct 2010 18:25:29 -0400

you know nobody on this earth knows me better than my old friend jackie . she knows everything about me . even my deepest darkest secrets.. but everybody else knows nothing about me . i can never truely explain how i feel on my facebook or myspace cuhz of family members… but on here i think i can . i need to tell my story .

FUCK THE BULLSHIT ! I aint gon’ sugarcoat SHIT for y’all . bitch i came from the bottom ! i got a deadbeat dad , a fucked up mom && an abusive stepdad . up feeling like the FUCK UP child . the one my parents should of aborted . since i was 5 Years old i been abused . i used to get beat from my stepdad wit a belt . i used to have huge welts on my back . man i used to get passed around from parent to parent when i was little . i been BEATEN , RAPED , DEGRADED , && EVERYTHING ELSE . but i’m still here . idk how but i still am . when i was 14 years old my BIOLOGICAL father raped me . on more than one occasion . now to those of you that said i’m a liar && that i made it up because i still talk to my , NO dickface ! the father i talk to is the one that lives in Arizona . he is NOT my biological father . he raised me since i was 3Months old . he didn’t have to , but he did because he loved me . my BIOLOGICAL father lives in west palm beach for all the dumbass’s out there . when i was 5 my mom got with my stepdad.. whom i have never liked . && to this day i continue to hate . i will never forgive him for the abuse i endured for 1O years living with him . i will never forgive him for beating the fuck out of my mom && cheating on her YEAR after YEAR . i will never forgive him for beating me . i never will . he is a sexist [ meaning he thinks men are better than woman ) , manipulative , caniving , DISGUSTING , fat , drug addict , alcoholic , retared bastard ! i hate you ! ! ! ! because of you i used to wanna kill myself . everyday . but i didn’t because i was scared.. i was scared that GOD wouldn’t love me anymore . you may have beaten my mother down to a pulp but you couldn’t && didn’t do that to me . you tried && failed miserably . i will never forget :

- getting ready for school & coming downstairs to find porn on the tv .

- coming home from school to find weed && beer cans everywhere .

- getting beat for bringing a D home from school .

- getting slepped in the face for asking my mom a question .

- having to right sentences 1OOOx’s beacuse of something i did wrong .

- getting everything in my room taken away even my clothes .

- having to stay buttnaked in my room so i wouldn’t run away .

- seeing my mothers bust eye’s , lips , & nose . seeing briuses on her . && cut’s !

- getting thrown down the stairs by my hair & having a sprained wrist .

there is MUCH more but i dont wish to continue on about that low life .

my mom ?! now she is a different story . i love my mother for birthing my but other than that . idk how i feel honestly . my mom is a whole different subject && i will talk about her another day . but those are a few of my struggles . this is why i am who i am . i’ve been to hell && back . some how i made it out alive .

- Lex

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